Missing Daisy

Missing Daisy
Ziggy and Zoie loving their sister

Monday, February 22, 2016

It is the 22nd of February and we are inching along. Two weeks ago I was approved by USCIS and today my Dossier was sent to China. That means we will be able to travel in 4-5 months. I always try to will it to be sooner but apparently there is still much to do. So we continue to dream of our little Daisy imagining meeting her and loving her. Imagining her here with us enjoying our times together. Adoption is so hard...but it is SO absolutely worth it. Worth it all.

I was thinking today about the day we met our little Zoie Love. It was last year in April. April 19th.
I had sent pictures for her foster mother to show her so she would recognize us. That never happened unfortunately so when we met Zoie she had no idea who we were.

Because of her age I was prepared for either greeting. I had watched enough children and adoption videos to know that at 2 1/2 and coming from a foster home it was likely that Zoie wouldn't run into my arms. 
We went to the 'meeting' room and it wasn't even 3:30 yet but all the other three parents were already in the room holding their children. We were outside the open doors no cameras ready because until that moment I thought we'd go in and wait as they then brought our children in. Never was there a parent arriving late in the videos. Anyway I imagine that when they saw us out there they told her to run in the hallway and go see maMA. Well of course she ran out there expecting her foster mother (OMG she looked so cute and big and all excited) and I scooped her up and she was not a fan.
If I passed her to anyone at that point she would think mistake had been made and then we'd relive the same thing and worse when I took her again, so hard as it was I held her as she screamed and hit me and over again.
Until we signed papers and she stopped. An hour later minutes later I think.
Luckily 3 of my older kids and my good friend were with me and she went to them all as long as it wasn't me smile emoticonbut I'm a big fan of feeling your feelings.  My little girl. My little Love. She had never even seen a picture of me.heart emoticon Poor sweet little thing.heart emoticon
For three days I did all the mama things but she would willingly go only to everyone else in the family...until I took her shopping and put her in the cart. That was all it took!!! I was buying food!!!
Then I was the real maMA. hahahaha
We had even started calling me mommy instead of maMA so I could have my own name for her but she started calling me maMA (heavy accent on the second ma) pretty soon after that. And now she randomly tells me she loves me in Chinese. heart emoticonShe is such a wonderful daughter.
She is going to be such a great sister to Daisy. I love my girl <3